Break up Blog #3
God has been very good to me.
This is the big realization of this whole experience: The fact that God has been carrying me all along. From the day the guy told me about his changed feelings, to the day I decided and told him it’s over, until now. And surely, God continues to make me feel that He is the one in-charged, NOT ME.
When it all started, I was all about my ways, my decisions, my feelings, my wants on the situation. But then, day by day, I continue to realize how God has been guiding me in this chapter of my life. So now, I am more aware of how He does things His way. I now find it easier to trust that.
Right now, I am certain of just one thing: God wants me to LET GO and KEEP MOVING ON.
I admit that there were times when I think about heading to the opposite direction. When those silly times come, God would always pop out of nowhere to slap me in the face with any obvious proof that I am doing the wrong thing. It really is amazing how that works. I choose not to include specific situations in this blog but I can assure anyone that God’s ways for me has been very apparent and beyond wonderful.
I also admit that I am not really ready to totally let go of everything yet. Especially the love I have for the guy. But I’ve decided to keep on feeling everything. The pain, the anger, and the love itself. I guess with this kind of handling, it’ll be easier for me to recognize when it’s done, when it’s enough. The most important thing of all is that I know where I am heading. I know what I have to be doing and the path I have to be taking.
I may have lost someone or something. But I know that I have gained more than I have lost. I may not have fully accepted what happened but I AM HAPPY. I AM POSITIVE. And I’ll keep on trusting God, with all my heart and mind. As much as excited I am to know where He would take me, I’ll just continue on…
And I’m sure, one of these days, I’ll bump into that someone who God has prepared for me. When the perfect time comes. :)
NIGHTNIGHT by DEDDY
